self-destruction

there's lot of fun fantastic awfull awesome kick-me-in-the-jimmy with=a=spoon because*i*like*it*that*way things going on in and around my life right now.

i'm feeling quite self-destructive as a response to it all.

i started working out. HARD. i can feel and see results. dropped 9 pounds in 8 days. everyday it's more and harder.

i scheduled a dentist appointment. i haven't been in 15 years(yeah, i'm old).

this morning for no particular reason i trimmed my pubic hair. not bald, but tamed the beast. only time that's happened was 14 years ago when i had hernia repair surgery.

my self-destruction is constructive.

but i see it. no one else can, i think. that's a good thing, i think.