nobody

is reading my blog lately. my extended break has somethign to do with that i'm sure.

it makes me feel free to write what all these stupid song quotes and half lines are about. get down to brass tacks. spew the track of my roller coaster all over this page.

mais non. i must protect. you. me. them. what good is a blog if it's all code and innuendo? do you get anything out of it? when i read it, it takes me RIGHT into what i was feeling, but it's not quite as big as when i wrote it. i want it to be as big. i want to tell me all about it.

i want to go home. but i will drive not home. home isn't there anyway. maybe it never was. maybe it was all in my head and i just need to calm down. want tainting perspective.

maybe i'm the fucking cheerleader.


my emotion are CRAZY right now. all kinds of wacked. i totally woke up this morning happy. excite to enjoy the day. then i caught a wiff of tequila in my head.